33 Year Old Abused Disabled Single Mom Seeks Financial And Moral Support
by Christy Dawn Ingram
(Southaven, MS, USA)
I am a 33-year-old single mother of three ADHD children. I suffer from bipolar, OCD, and post-traumatic stress disorders, as well as severe anxiety, and seizures.
I was married in 1998 to a very abusive husband. Thanks to him I had my nose broken several times, which has caused me breathing problems and now it just looks horrible and I'm very insecure about my looks now.
I finally was able to get away from him and started over with nothing but the clothes on my back and a few things for my children to wear. I met someone new and finally had my life on track.
I was a successful store manager and thanks to God and a lot of therapy to help with all the mental damage he caused me I was able to finally be happy and healthy.
I thought my life was great, but that's when it all fell apart. Five years after leaving my husband, my new boyfriend started to abuse me. He was even worse to me than my husband.
Thanks to him I got a lot of my teeth knocked out and damaged. Then on Mother's Day he got extremely upset with me because I spent the whole day with my mom.
When I got home that evening he had all the kids sign my card and as soon as he handed it to me he smacked me as hard as he could right in front of my kids.
I tried to leave then and go to my mom's. He pushed me down the stairs and broke my ankle. He would not take me to the hospital.
I sat at the house, which was way out in the country with an ankle that was broken in two places for over a week.
When my family started asking questions he got scared and took me and dropped me off in front of the hospital and left.
My mother let me and the kids stay with her until I was healed and back on my feet, but the damage was done. Because I didn't get to the hospital sooner my ankle will never be the same again.
I suffer a lot of pain and the trauma caused me to have a mental breakdown. I had worked so hard to put my life back together and now I was right back where I started, but much worse.
I used to be very outgoing and not afraid of anything, but now I have panic attacks just going in a store. I lost my job that I had worked so hard for.
I started as a cashier for the company and within two years I had my own store that was brand new. I loved my job. Now I'm on SSI and I can barely pay my bills.
My ex-boyfriend messed the only car I had and I couldn't get it fixed because I just can't afford it.
I can't get a loan cause my credit is bad and when I was living with my boyfriend I paid all the bills on time every month, but they we're in his name, so his credit looks good.
I cannot even get to my or my kids' doctor appointments. I have to beg people for rides and I know they are tired of it.
I cry myself to sleep many nights, because I cannot do anything for my kids right now. I do the best I can do and I show them all the love I have in my heart.
But they deserve to have things and it breaks my heart that I can't give them nice things and I can't take them anywhere.
And if that isn't enough thanks to my boyfriend cracking several of my teeth they developed cavities in my front teeth and I can't afford to get them fixed. They hurt so bad and I hate to smile 'cause I'm afraid someone will see them.
My self-esteem is so low and it is keeping me from picking myself back up and starting over. I lost everything when I left my husband and I lost everything when I left this time and I lost myself.
I want my life back. I want all the damage they did to my body and mind to go away!! I want to be the mother my kids deserve, instead of someone that gets scared just leaving the house.
I get no help from my husband to help with the kids. My family is far away and my mom is ill. I need to get a car and get my teeth fixed so I can get back out in the world without feeling so insecure.
I want to be able to buy nice things for my kids and I want to move out of this crappy house that is falling apart. I just need some help.
The worst part of leaving my ex is that the house we lived in we we're buying it and all the money to get it came out of money that I had saved, but because of my credit it had to be put in his name. So I lost everything.
He won't even give my kids some of their toys or clothes. They had bikes, a trampoline, a swing set, and a pool, all bought by me. Now I can barely put food on the table.
I never thought my life would end up like this. I have always treated everyone with respect and I have never been mean to anyone. I don't know why people want to hurt me so much, but I'm tired of it.
I thank God my children and I just being alive and for giving me the strength to leave and start over with nothing. It's so hard though, and I don't know how much more I can handle.
I'm afraid my children will end up hating me. They don't understand why they had to lose all their stuff not once but twice. I have explained it to them, but I know it hurts them a lot and they really just don't understand.
I have been getting sick a lot lately too, because I have been stressing too much. I have put it in God's hands. I hope he's listening. If anyone can give me some ideas or just some support it would be very appreciated. Thank You and God Bless.