45 Year Old Disabled Woman Seeks Help For Multiple Sclerosis And Depression
by Brenda Kalman
(Van Nuys, CA, USA)
I am a 45-year-old woman disabled by multiple sclerosis and depression too, even though I consider myself a positive person.
Although I've had a roommate, I've never been married. My 22-year-old daughter is now married and living on her own.
By the time I turned 18, I had lost both of my parents due to cancer.
I started feeling ill around 1997. Prior to that, I was a happy, healthy and active woman, working from the time I was 16 years old.
More often than not I worked two jobs to provide for myself.
The diagnosis process was slow for me and very difficult for the medical providers to give a specific diagnosis. The first diagnosis was listed as unspecified connective tissue disease, COPD and severe depression.
Not long after I was treated for steroid resistant lupus. A few years later I was diagnosed with Type II diabetes and fibromyalgia (finally something that fit the symptoms I was having).
In 2010 I was positively diagnosed with multiple sclerosis, but by the time of the diagnosis I was already partially paralyzed on the left side of my body.
But learning of multiple sclerosis and the depression accompanying the knowledge was just the tip of the iceberg.
Early this year I was also diagnosed with a small brain aneurism. I currently receive treatment for these illnesses and I am blessed with well-qualified doctors and staffs.
My life has become difficult emotionally and financially.
I had a roommate at one time; however, he got involved in illegal drugs and became addicted and I asked him to leave.
At this point I am now on my own and have sold everything of value that I could to simply pay my bills.
I have been depending on SSDI to live. It's simply not enough.
I have managed to swallow my pride and ask friends and family for help not knowing when or if I will ever be able to repay them.
I do not make enough money to even cover my rent completely. I only have food in my home when others provide it and I simply cannot afford my electricity and gas or phone.
The amount of stress I feel is completely overwhelming on top of the challenges of being sick.
I cannot afford a car and have missed many important appointments because I cannot even afford to ride the bus.
I cannot afford to move because of the high cost involved with it, not to mention many days I am really to sick or exhausted to get out of bed.
I do receive $889 SSDI (my rent is $1000) I have signed up for the ticket to work program and had a few interviews for part-time work.
The truth is I'm not certain I am truly physically able since I do not know how sick I might feel from one day to the next.
I also have difficulties with short-term memory and concentration.
I have not held a job since 1998 due to my disabilities and the job market is bad already. And it seems as though employers are immediately turned off when I have to explain why I have been out of work for so long.
I honestly am not aware of any government or any other aid for that matter because I can't even qualify for food stamps.
I am seeking any kind of benefits, grants or any type of help so that my next worries are not about not even having a roof over my head or the basic necessities.
I literally think about and stress over that becoming a reality. I do not know where to turn for help. Another great concern of mine is what all of this stress is doing to my already poor health.
I pride myself on being a positive person. The multiple sclerosis and depression that goes along with it are making it more and more difficult to look on the bright side of life.
I truly need help.
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