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Anxiety And Depression Disabled Woman Seeks Transportation Grant Money

by AnneMarie Welsh
(Mesa, Arizona, USA)

I'm a 54-year-old woman, divorced now for 16 years. I have one daughter who provides no help or support.

I live alone in the same apartment I've been in for eight years. I stayed to myself and don't have any friends to support me as well.

I am without transportation and not able to buy monthly groceries for myself, get to my doctors' appointments or get to the pharmacy monthly.

I have worked all my life. I married for 20 years. In 1995, I was laid off from a job I had for 13 years.

In 1996, I was receiving unemployment when my husband filed for a divorce. He took our savings and hired a lawyer and I had none.

I went through major life events due to the divorce proceedings: loss of residence, loss of all income. I didn't have a chance without a lawyer.

I managed to get a full-time job and tried to maintain permanent residency for myself but my net income would get garnished by one of my debtors and I was unable to pay my monthly rent so again I was homeless.

This happened at least eight times to me. I gave my two-week notice to my employer with a job I loved and had for seven years and just walked out July1, 2002.

I just shut down or as my doctor called it I had a nervous breakdown. When these life-changing events happen in a person's life it causes a person to break down under all the pressure.

It causes all circuits in the brain to go haywire, which in turn causes physical, mental and emotional overload. A nervous breakdown is an acute emotional, psychological collapse.

A friend of mine came to me and had me call the local Crisis Hotline, who then directed me to the Department of Economic Security where I received medical insurance immediately and was scheduled for a mental health intake.

I was diagnosed with severe depression, an anxiety disorder. I experience audio hallucinations (voices) on occasion as well.

After my intake I started to receive medical care right away. Then the Department of Economic Security had me apply for Social Security Disability which I now receive.

According to Social Security Disability officials, I was disabled as of July 1, 2002, the same day I left my fulltime job as an accounts payable Supervisor.

I also suffer from COPD, asthma and high blood pressure. I have asocial phobias as well and my doctor and I are going to talk about it this month.

I can't be in a crowd or any enclosed area with other people. I can't breath. I immediately have to separate myself from the area or building.

When I can't breathe, my anxiety level goes up my heart begins to race and I can't catch my breath. This happens when I ride the bus or go into a store. My bronchial tubes then constrict hence brings on my asthma.

I receive a monthly check of $1,347, which I spend like this…

Rent $660 (half of my income)
Qwest (phone, cable and internet) $245
Additional health insurance $15.90
Capital One $40
Premier Bank $40
Fingerhut $38
Prescriptions $23
(3) Cats $40
Food and misc. $120
Bank advance deposit payment $100

It adds up to $1318.90, leaving me with $28.10

I am unable to work at all. I don't qualify for any state assistance such as food cash or medical assistance due to my income. I receive a monthly food box from St Vincent De Paul.

I could use a grant or any kind of help to obtain transportation so that I am able to:

- go to my doctor appointments, which I'm constantly rescheduling because I have to get on the bus
- go to the pharmacy (this last month I was without my medication for nine days before I could get myself on the bus.)
- buy groceries at the local Walmart instead of the Shell station on the corner
- get a haircut or maybe buy some shoes at the shoe store (I haven't had a new pair of shoes in nine years)

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