Back Pain And Depression Disabled Woman Needs Life Restoring Benefits
by Kim Allen
(Columbia, Tennessee, USA)
I am a 42-year-old woman, engaged to a wonderful man. We both trust in the Lord with all that is in us.
I want to help others as much as possible in this life. Once I am in a position to do so, I will give to food pantries as often as I can.
I currently live about 25 miles away from the closest town. It is very beautiful here, but one must travel far to get to the store, doctor, etc.
I have always taken pride in my work, and always worked full time, so it is very humbling for me to be at a place where I need to ask for help, as my physical and mental ailments have gotten much worse than they were a couple years ago.
I have scoliosis and kyphosis in my lower back. I had a back brace as a teenager, which did help to straighten the spine out somewhat during my growth spurts.
Now though, as a middle-aged adult, the curves that are still there are causing me an unbearable amount of pain, which has also spread into my hips and legs.
An MRI I had about seven years ago also revealed degenerative disk disease, arthritis and several other back problems.
The cartilage in my left ankle is broken, and it shifts around whenever it feels like it, locking up my ankle. Due to all of these physical problems, I now have to walk with a cane at all times.
I was severely emotionally abused and abandoned by my family of origin. This caused severe depression and anxiety for me to deal with. I had a nervous breakdown in 2011, and I haven't been the same since.
My depression and anxiety have become debilitating. I cry almost all the time. I can't help it. I have always been aware of the depression and anxiety, but was recently diagnosed with PTSD.
I am seeing a therapist to help me try to get a handle on my emotional health so that I can move forward with my life.
Money is very hard to come by. We moved to this area a year ago, and our only vehicle died the week we moved.
We had to pay someone to move us, because we had planned on making the move in our van. The van also would have provided a way to get to town to the grocery store, doctor's appointments, etc.
We now have to rely on public transportation to get to town. It costs $4 per person to ride it. I've been fortunate to qualify for a program to pay for my mental health care, but I unfortunately do not currently qualify for any physical health care.
I did find a doctor's office that will be able to see me as a patient, on a sliding scale. The only problem is that the lowest price per visit is $40, which I do not have.
I'm glad for the mental health care, but I cannot afford the medicines prescribed to me. I have to beg family members for the money each month. This contributes even more to my depression and anxiety.
I have made every effort possible to obtain an income.
I applied for Social Security Disability in February 2012. I was denied, and I am now in the appeal process.
In the meantime, I have to find some way to make some money. I went to two job interviews, but neither panned out for me.
I have been exploring making money online working from home, but haven't found a reputable one yet that actually makes money.
I am seeking money (grant or benefit money) so that I can get a vehicle and be more self-sufficient. This would enable me to set up booths at festivals, and sell the jewelry I make.
I would also be able to get myself to my doctors' appointments. The money would also help me see the doctor at the sliding scale clinic, and would help me buy my medicines.
I make jewelry as a hobby. I am blessed to live in a place where there are always festivals going on, as the weather is nice year round.
In the past, before my physical and mental health declined to the point that I could no longer work, I'd set up my booth about three times each summer. (I was living somewhere that festivals only happened in the summer due to the weather.)
I would love to sell my wares again. I just have to be able to get there. I make many different styles of jewelry, encompassing the taste of many different people.
I would need to purchase some more beads and supplies to get started again. I miss the interaction with people.
I want to be able to make money to support myself. I would appreciate any help that you can give me, from the bottom of my heart.