Emotionally Financially Devastated Disabled 54 Year Old Man Seeks Grant Money
by William Warren
(Orting, WA, USA)
I am a 54-year-old male who just a few short years ago was living the dream. Now I'm looking for grant money to escape an emotional and financial nightmare.
At 48 years of age met a beautiful young woman of 28 years of age. I never imagined she would even go out with me if asked her, but she did!
We both wanted children, and to live and raise our children in a small town on a hobby farm. We got engaged, were going to live together for a year, then get married and have kids.
Well that's not what happened. You see I had a career making close to six figures for a very large corporation. It had me on the road traveling 130 to 150 days a year.
She made it perfectly clear that if we were to be married she was not raising children on her own.
So I quit my job and went to work with one of my best customers. I took the job knowing the benefits were good and I did not have to travel.
Three day later she tells me she is pregnant! I was excited and just said, "Well honey, we are just going to do things in reverse."
So we got pregnant first, went on our honeymoon before she became too big and uncomfortable for going to Maui. When we returned we made preparations for our wedding.
She had a horrible pregnancy, sick every day. She gave birth to our son Cayden at 1:30 am by emergency c-section. Then the post partum depression set in. The depression never left in our five short years of marriage.
In August of 2008 I was diagnosed with idiopathic peripheral neuropathy, and stenosis of the spine, for which there's no cure.
I am not diabetic and the stenosis was not severe enough to warrant surgery. I kept my job and it was increasingly getting worse every day.
The co-pay for my prescriptions alone was $600 per month and did not help that much. I was missing work a lot and in combination with my wife's depression I also had to come home to care for the children, now two kids, a boy and a girl, exactly what we wanted.
I was laid off (fired) for absenteeism on August 7th of 2008. She had to go back to work and was very upset that she did not get to stay home with our children until they both entered school as we had agreed.
This is when things really went downhill. My back kept hurting more and more. My chiropractor said from his point of view there was nothing to cause the severe pain I had daily and recommended I see an MD for a Cat Scan.
I was then diagnosed with L4, L5, S1, nerve facet damage, disk degenerative disease, and arthrosis of the spine, all of which were non-operative.
I was told I had to live with it. I started spinal injections on a monthly basis, which relieved the pain a considerable amount.
After about a year and another child I was diagnosed with Fibromyalgia Syndrome, again no cure. It became so bad I was unable to care for our children in the morning so my wife hired a babysitter for the mornings.
I was also suffering from what is known as fibro fog or brain fog. This is exactly as its description… you are in a mental daze, unable to figure things out or make intelligent decisions.
It causes severe pain in the muscles and joint areas of your body. It varies from individual to individual in levels of pain.
Mine is best described as running through a gauntlet of men each with a baseball bat and every one of them gets a whack at you and by the time you get to the end, every muscle in your body aches.
Now keep in mind this pain is 24 hours a day, seven days a week. It NEVER stops. It only changes in degrees or levels of pain. Some days are okay; other days you don't even want to get out of bed.
On September 24, 2009 my wife decided I was like having a fourth child and moved out with the kids in tow.
I did not realize how carefully she had planned this move. I thought we were moving.
On a Sunday we had, with my family's help moved everything except the TV and one bed and a chair.
I told her I was beat, tired, and needed to get to bed. Of course nothing was set up at the new place and she suggested I come back to the farm so I could sleep on the bed there.
I said okay. She told me she loved me and gave me a big hug and kiss. Two hours later I was served divorce papers and was accused of many horrible untrue things and the divorce papers stated that because of these issues I could not see the kids without supervision.
Talk about a shock and being devastated. I volunteered to have a psycho-sexual evaluation and polygraph examination for a cost of $2,000 of which I was exonerated and proved innocent of what she alleged and then the court ordered I was to have non-supervised visitations.
Some time has passed now and since my unemployment benefits are exhausted I have no way to earn any income at all. It is not possible for me to work.
My farm is in foreclosure, the trustee sale is set for September 17, 2010, and divorce trial is scheduled for October 6.
My attorney is threatening to withdraw from the case if I do not come up with $6,500 for the trial.
My SSDI federal hearing is going to be in December of 2010 at the earliest. I have sent my SSDI attorney the foreclosure documents and to request a "dire needs" to speed up the process.
I am suing for custody of my children. Two weeks after my wife moved out, my then four-year-old son comes up to me and says, "Daddy, mom has some guy sleep in her bed and leaves in the morning."
Talk about being devastated; it almost killed me. If it were not for my faith in the Lord, I certainly would not be here today.
So everything is in reverse order from what it needs to be. If I win my Federal SSDI hearing I would have over $80,000 in back pay plus $2,680 per month in benefits, and I would qualify for a loan modification.
If I get custody of my children you can add another $1,000 per month from my ex-wife in child support. Te GAL is totally on my side and is going to recommend my ex-wife take physiological examinations and would like to see the kids with me.
The sad part is that none of this can work without me having the financial means needed to carry me through until my SSDI benefits are approved.
I understand there are no guarantees with SSDI but I do have a very strong case. Attorneys usually won't even take you case unless you have a better than 80% chance of winning, my attorney says he see no reason I would be denied at the trial.
So I am asking for financial help. It would be a tragedy to lose the farm the children were raised on, to have my car repossessed and all of my medical bills turned into collection, power and water turned off, no food.
Well you can imagine what it would be like with no income and going through what I am. Losing my children because of money would devastate me. It's sad that our justice system is judged by the color green.
If I rob a bank, or if I have no money, I get a free attorney. If I have a psychotic wife, she files divorce papers first, and I have to pay through the nose for an attorney.
If I can't afford one because I can't work because of my disabilities, then tough luck. I will continue to pray for justice to our Lord Jesus Christ.
If anyone knows of a grant that can help my financial needs, I would be humbly indebted to you. Thank you for the time to read my story. May God bless you. William Warren.