Government Grant To Bring Normality To Schizophrenia Disabled Single Guy
by Chris Woods
(Fort Worth, TX, USA)
I'm a 26-year-old schizophrenia disabled single guy living in Fort Worth, Texas with my parents.
I was diagnosed with schizophrenia in 2010. I have always had strange experiences throughout my life, growing up and living through major changes that happened over the years.
This disability is not a light matter. It affects one of the major organs of our human body, the brain.
I feel so defeated at times because of the symptoms and challenges that I experience. One day I'm just making it, others I'm severely suffering through mind battles that challenge my daily functioning.
I feel so depressed at times I can't even breathe! I just sit and wonder when I'm going to wake up from this nightmare. Is someone going to jump out the closet and say, "Gotcha... this is just a joke! Now you're normal again."
No this is a matter that I'm going to battle for the rest of my life. No one can shake the pain that comes with this territory.
Realistically, I have a mental scar for life, with no cure, just medication that makes me feel like a zombie, that shuts me down from normality.
Tears are too light of an expression. Nothing I can do makes me okay with this disability at times! Welcome to my life.
At home I stay with parents that are taking my situation lightly. My house is filled with gamblers, fakers and selfishness. I am in hell at times.
I need a way to co-exist with myself and live a normal life on my own. My work is difficult at times when I'm surrounded by people... their stares and reactions remind me everyday what I'm dealing with.
But I must keep going in these hard economic times.
My medication feels like weights dropping on my brain, like something that gives me even more symptoms to deal with.
I need meditation and courage to co-exist with people with blessed healthy brains in America, in Texas, in my job, in my abusive home, in my room with nothing but emotional rollercoasters. Please help me.
I'm working on-call bartending with a catering company. I have no other source of income, nothing else to help me, not even my parents.
I need to understand what I can qualify for, what I can apply for, what resources can help me with dealing with schizophrenia.
Maybe there are some lawyers that can help me with benefits or any process that can steer me in the right direction.
If I could, I'd like to start an online business dealing with sailing accessories or male cufflinks.
I'm also looking for funding for my charity that I'm starting for humanity dealing with schizophrenia. I'm working on getting the paperwork and plans in order, but I need financial assistance and resources to get me started!