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Grant Money For Fibromyalgia Disabled Woman To Get Home Of Her Own

by Olga Stebeleva
(Bronx, NY, USA)

I am a 55-year-old female who was born in Russia. When I was 10 years old my parents died. I have two older brothers who live in Russia.

I now have been living in New York for 26 years. I still live with my husband of 15 years, though life with him has become extremely difficult. About three years ago I lost my job and this has placed an incredible strain on our relationship.

Shortly after I got a case of shingles followed by fibromyalgia. This has further strained our relationship and life with my husband became unbearable. Without me working we're truly struggling to survive!

Disability Issues

I have been living with Major Depression, Anxiety Disorder and Attention Deficit Disorder (ADD) since my earliest memory. It has always been difficult for me to gain employment, and even more difficult to maintain it.

I also have OCD (Obsessive Compulsive Disorder), and my Anxiety Disorder manifests itself in nervousness and panic attacks, which got significantly worse after I got diagnosed with Fibromyalgia.

As result, I held odd jobs for most of my adult life, except for my last job of a drug counselor/case manager. To acquire it, I had to complete one year of studies. That I did not without difficulties owing to my ADD.

It was still more difficult to obtain employment in my chosen field. After a yearlong unpaid internship at Palladia, Inc., my boss helped me to obtain employment at Samaritan Village.

At first I struggled, but as soon as my then doctor prescribed Adderall, I started doing well and I enjoyed working very much! I was getting a lot of compliments from my higher-ups and it felt so good!

However, in about a year or so I started to have problems with my heart because of the side effects of Adderall and my then doctor told me that I had to stop taking it.

As soon as I did that, my job performance started suffering greatly, and in the end Samaritan, Inc had to let me go.

Shortly after that I contracted shingles, and the pain from it only seemed to get worse and worse until doctors diagnosed me with Fibromyalgia. This explained the widespread bodily pain and extreme fatigue.

If I spend half a day running errands, I would have to spend the entire day after in bed! I am forced to lie down and place my legs up as they swell and hurt really bad after a couple of hours spent standing.

Already at Samaritan my supervisor was advising me to apply for Disability. Stricken with Fibromyalgia I really had no choice but to apply!

However, while I was on the phone with the rep from Social Security Office, I was informed that I didn't work at Samaritan sufficiently long to qualify!

I was crushed, as my husband and I could barely make ends meet. We have been relying on food pantries. Thank God for that. Finally, through Disability Digest, founded by Brian Therrien, I've learned that though I may not qualify for SSDI, I may still qualify for SSI!

What a relief to know that! I am very thankful to both Brian from Disability Digest and Don from Ability-Mission.org.

Financial Hardship

I've already described some money issues in the previous section. We are greatly in debt. I have unpaid student loans, while at the same time I have zero income.

At first I didn't want to let go of the fact that I won't be able to work as the drug counselor but eventually I came to terms with it.

I was looking for a job every chance I got. Many a time I wouldn't want to look realistically at the situation while applying for a job. So I would apply for a job requiring all day standing, or work all day.

Sometimes I think I could manage to spend a day working (even though I've yet to demonstrate this to myself)! And I would have to spend the next two to three days in bed. Who would allow me to have such a job!

In addition to my psych drugs (Prozac and Trazodone) I take drugs to treat my Fibromyalgia (Avinza and Oxycodone).

They generate a host of undesirable side effects, however I am very grateful for them because they also help me a lot!

And I am very grateful to Medicaid who pays for all my medication as well as the two monthly doctor visits. I am offered metro fare at my doctor's office. Again, I am very grateful for all the help I get!

Income Efforts

To put an end to working odd jobs, I had to obtain my GED. I did this with much difficulty owing to ADD.

To ensure that my work at Samaritan would last, I also attended Metropolitan College of New York (MCNY), which was likewise very difficult for me. However, MCNY were allowing certain privileges for me knowing I had ADD.

It was very sad for me to have lost my job at Samaritan, as I was trying so hard to avoid this! I didn't know where to look for a job.

I knew that I couldn't do the work I went to school for especially after I've been diagnosed with Fibromyalgia. My condition and the Meds that I take to treat it made that absolutely impossible.

So when applying for a job, I was trying to obtain different work. I applied at the stores pretty much of all sorts, trying to convince myself that I could do it!

My friend would tell me she saw such and such place where they hiring and if I was able to go (as sometimes this is impossible having Fibro) I would go and apply.

Fibromyalgia greatly added to my already existing mental health issues I now have so called brain fog making my already poor ability to concentrate next to impossible!

In addition, I have my short-term memory impaired. I truly hope to obtain some help, as otherwise I wouldn't know how to survive, especially now that my husband lost interest in me.

It seems I can't help but to overlap this material I am writing; I apologize for it. This is my fourth attempt at writing it. I sincerely believe that you at Ability-Mission.org will find it acceptable.

Both my husband and I have some great friends who help us now and then. My friends allow me to spend a day with them here and there when my husband becomes abusive and I am very grateful for that!

Specific Needs

I seek SSI, as well as to repay or otherwise resolve my student loan and other debts.

I would gladly accept whatever help I can find.

Food stamps would help greatly too, as we barely have enough money for groceries.

Every week we have to do without this or that, unless one of our friends steps in and buys it for us!

However, I would really like to have a place I could call my own!

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Oct 04, 2013
Home, Sweet Home
by: Anonymous

A home of my own would be a wonderful thing to have! Also, I long to be debt-free! I thank all who took the time to listen to my story. Particular thanks to Don Coggan and Brian Therrien.

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