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Back Pain And Depression Disabled Woman Needs Life Restoring Benefits

by Kim Allen
(Columbia, Tennessee, USA)

I am a 42-year-old woman, engaged to a wonderful man. We both trust in the Lord with all that is in us.

I want to help others as much as possible in this life. Once I am in a position to do so, I will give to food pantries as often as I can.

I currently live about 25 miles away from the closest town. It is very beautiful here, but one must travel far to get to the store, doctor, etc.

Disability Issues

I have always taken pride in my work, and always worked full time, so it is very humbling for me to be at a place where I need to ask for help, as my physical and mental ailments have gotten much worse than they were a couple years ago.

I have scoliosis and kyphosis in my lower back. I had a back brace as a teenager, which did help to straighten the spine out somewhat during my growth spurts.

Now though, as a middle-aged adult, the curves that are still there are causing me an unbearable amount of pain, which has also spread into my hips and legs.

An MRI I had about seven years ago also revealed degenerative disk disease, arthritis and several other back problems.

The cartilage in my left ankle is broken, and it shifts around whenever it feels like it, locking up my ankle. Due to all of these physical problems, I now have to walk with a cane at all times.

I was severely emotionally abused and abandoned by my family of origin. This caused severe depression and anxiety for me to deal with. I had a nervous breakdown in 2011, and I haven't been the same since.

My depression and anxiety have become debilitating. I cry almost all the time. I can't help it. I have always been aware of the depression and anxiety, but was recently diagnosed with PTSD.

I am seeing a therapist to help me try to get a handle on my emotional health so that I can move forward with my life.

Financial Hardship

Money is very hard to come by. We moved to this area a year ago, and our only vehicle died the week we moved.

We had to pay someone to move us, because we had planned on making the move in our van. The van also would have provided a way to get to town to the grocery store, doctor's appointments, etc.

We now have to rely on public transportation to get to town. It costs $4 per person to ride it. I've been fortunate to qualify for a program to pay for my mental health care, but I unfortunately do not currently qualify for any physical health care.

I did find a doctor's office that will be able to see me as a patient, on a sliding scale. The only problem is that the lowest price per visit is $40, which I do not have.

I'm glad for the mental health care, but I cannot afford the medicines prescribed to me. I have to beg family members for the money each month. This contributes even more to my depression and anxiety.

Income Efforts

I have made every effort possible to obtain an income.

I applied for Social Security Disability in February 2012. I was denied, and I am now in the appeal process.

In the meantime, I have to find some way to make some money. I went to two job interviews, but neither panned out for me.

I have been exploring making money online working from home, but haven't found a reputable one yet that actually makes money.

Specific Needs

I am seeking money (grant or benefit money) so that I can get a vehicle and be more self-sufficient. This would enable me to set up booths at festivals, and sell the jewelry I make.

I would also be able to get myself to my doctors' appointments. The money would also help me see the doctor at the sliding scale clinic, and would help me buy my medicines.

Business Idea

I make jewelry as a hobby. I am blessed to live in a place where there are always festivals going on, as the weather is nice year round.

In the past, before my physical and mental health declined to the point that I could no longer work, I'd set up my booth about three times each summer. (I was living somewhere that festivals only happened in the summer due to the weather.)

I would love to sell my wares again. I just have to be able to get there. I make many different styles of jewelry, encompassing the taste of many different people.

I would need to purchase some more beads and supplies to get started again. I miss the interaction with people.

I want to be able to make money to support myself. I would appreciate any help that you can give me, from the bottom of my heart.

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Jan 14, 2014
Thanks AbilityMission.org!
by: Anonymous

I want to send out a heartfelt Thanks to Don and the staff who work on/with your site, for publishing my story. I feel encouraged! God bless you all!

Jan 14, 2014
Thank you George
by: Anonymous

George from Ohio, thank you so much for your heartfelt comment. It's nice to know I'm not alone, as there is someone else out there who can relate.

I do get food stamps, but I unfortunately don't qualify for Medicaid yet, as I don't have any minor children at home.

Thank you for praying for me; I'm praying for you as well. God bless and keep you.

Nov 10, 2013
local govt.
by: George

I sympathize with you about your pain. I have it too. I take pills for pain, depression and diabetes.

Do you have a lawyer? if you do they will get you SSD and will pay you one lump sum from when you applied first in 2012. So talk to a lawyer. Mine got me my SSD the first time. I live in Ohio and it took six months.

First you need to be on Medicaid and food stamps to help you get by till SSD starts. Check the county you live in. They may be able to get you a car or transportation and Medicaid will foot the bill. And when SSD starts Medicaid will help with the monthly payment for Medicare and pay most of all your prescriptions. When you get your lump sum you can still have a small business. Check with with churches, as well as the county. If you can sit in a chair for 6-8 hours a day and talk to people on the phone you could get a local, state or federal job. They have to take vets first then the disabled and will accommodate you in whatever you need.

Do not try business online unless you have something to sell. They are all scams. You can also go to your library and get a book titled "Grants for Dummies." Read your bible together in agreement that the things I'm telling you are real and waiting for you. God never leads his children astray. God bless and I'll pray for you pray for me. I have to live in a recliner 24/7. Love to hear back how you make out.

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