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Bipolar And Severe Depression Disabled Single Mom Seeks Financial Help Coping

by April Ragsdale
(Easley, SC, USA)

I am a 31-year-old single mother disabled with bipolar disorder and severe depression.

I'm looking for financial grants and help coping with depression and the effects of it and the other things on my everyday life.

My precious little boy is also disabled with severe autism, dyspraxia, hypoglycemia and anxiety disorder.

I have a severe bladder disease called interstitial cystitis. I have to go every week or two to have a catheter inserted and medicine put directly into my bladder.

I'm in pain every single day and I also suffer from severe bipolar depression.

My little boy is my life and I have fought so hard to get services he needs, and now have to fight again because Medicaid only wants to cover his occupational therapy once per week instead of twice per week.

He has been receiving that therapy since he was 15 months old. He actually needs it twice a week because he is eight years old, even though he's only three mentally.

He is left-handed but weakest on his left side, so he still cannot write, use scissors, ride a bike, etc.

I homeschool him with an online, special education program that is animated. He doesn't have to write. It's all done on the computer. It works for him because he is a visual learner, and excellent on the computer.

He goes to speech and occupational therapy two times a week and the ABA (Applied Behavioral Therapy) person comes to our home five days a week for between 3 and 4 hours per day.

My disabilities are bipolar disorder with severe manic depression and interstitial cystitis, which leaves me in constant pain.

Cystitis of the bladder is a bladder infection. Interstitial cystitis is where the lining of the bladder is constantly inflamed so it's as if everyday I have a bladder infection without the infection.

I have had two bladder surgeries called hydrodistention. I can tell more and more each day that it is getting worse.

I have to go through pain management for pain medication, and pain cream that has to be compounded and ordered.

I am getting more and more depressed because I am in pain every day. My psychiatrist has tried many combinations of antidepressants and mood stabilizers that are not working at all.

I am so sad. I can't ever seem to catch a break and get ahead and I'm about to lose everything I do own.

I'm looking for financial grants and help coping with depression and the effects of it and the other things on my everyday life.

My psychiatrist also diagnosed me with ADD and OCD. Right now he is treating the bipolar and ADD and soon will treat the OCD.

I also blame myself for my sweet boy's disability. He has been in therapy since he was 15 months.

My disability, the depression, started at age 16 and I'm now 31. I also have had problems with stomach pain since I was 16 but it was not determined until 2007.

I have had numerous surgeries on my stomach and will soon find out if I have Crohn's disease as well. My disability status is permanently disabled.

My son and I together receive $1300 per month. My power bill alone has been running over $300. I have gas heat and it's at $100. I have a loan on my vehicle that is $240 per month. My rent is $550 and about to go up to $650. My car insurance is $75 and I have a copay at the psychiatrists every month of $30, not to mention my medications at around $20.

My little boy needs new clothes for winter and I can't afford that. My car is tearing up and I don't have the money to fix it, and I have to have my vehicle especially for my little boy's appointments, but mine as well.

I receive $75 per month in food stamps and can barely get what my little boy needs. He has hypoglycemia and has to eat every 30-60 minutes.

I also have to buy homeopathic medications for my son, because he is allergic to so many regular medicines and I haven't been able to do that in three months.

I'm trying so hard and I feel like a horrible mom and that makes me even more depressed. I have to pay $20 a month for his schoolwork, $50 a month for cable because he flips out if he can't watch cartoons.

I'm paying $30 for Internet service for his school, but got behind and now I owe $130 so it will be turned off soon and I don't know what to do.

I have to pay $71 a month for my bed because I didn't have money to just buy one. My checking account is overdrawn by $150.

The computer he uses is about to give out and I can't afford to have it fixed and he has to do his schoolwork.

He is still in diapers, because his sensory system is so bad due to his autism, he has no idea when he has to go, but I can't afford his diapers right now.

He needs a new booster seat, clothes, shoes, a good coat for winter and I keep praying that each month will be better so that I can get all the things he needs and deserves to have.

But the power bill never goes down and none of the other bills do either. I pray every night for things to get better for us, but we never get that one little break we so desperately need.

I receive $818 for SSDI, and my little boy receives $222 from my disability and $348 for his SSI. We get $75 a month in food stamps.

I have been going to the Pickens County South Carolina Department of Disabilities and Special Needs (DDSN) for help with his diapers.

I am so busy with him that I for one don't know where to go to ask for help and don't have time to go many places.

I am in so much pain every single day that I get even more depressed and just can't function. I am begging for help.

We need an electrician to come out and inspect the house also. The wires are straight wired and I can't sleep at night because I worry its going to catch on fire.

The power goes out at least four times a day and my power bill is so high. We are going to need help moneywise to move, because the rent is going up to $650.

We need help with clothing and shoes. He needs a computer and if there is a grant to help me purchase a vehicle that is dependable I would be so grateful.

I don't know if there are grants for the things we need, but if so please help us out at this time of need.

I just can't see the light at the end of the tunnel, and my spirit is so broken.

I'm looking for financial grants and help coping with depression and the effects of it and my bipolar and all the other things going on in my everyday life.

Someone please tell me where to go for help, or lead me in the right direction, please. Thank you!

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May 02, 2012
God Helps
by: Anonymous

I am really sorry to hear about the trouble you are encountering. Are you involved in a faith based church? If not you need to find one. God is the healer and can heal you and your child if you ask and receive. His word the Bible talks about God being our provider. You just need to be shown how to use the promises God gives us.

I will pray for you and your family. Just listen for God to talk to him. Accept him if you are not saved. Just pray to him that you know he died for us and rose again, that you need his help in your life.

Best wishes


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