Disability Grant For Bipolar Joseph To Restore Life And Repay Debts
by Joseph Milas
(Hemet, California, USA)
I am a 50-year-old widowed disabled man with two adult children.
I was born in Torrance California. For the past two and a half years, I've been living in Hemet, California with a long-time friend.
I am the youngest child out of eight boys. My nationality is Croatian.
I lost my father to Alzheimer's, my mother to congestive heart failure and my wife of 22 years to suicide… all within two weeks of each other in April of 2010.
I've been diagnosed with severe bipolar disorder, extreme depression, anxiety, chronic fatigue, all of which I have suffered for about 10 years.
After losing my parents and wife, I now suffer from PTSD as well.
I am prescribed various medications to treat all of these. My doctors keep trying different medications, different doses and different combinations of meds. Nothing has seemed to stabilize or really help completely.
I am currently receiving Social Security Disability and have been since April of 2013.Financial Hardship
Since April of 2010, I have not been able to work or do much of anything socially.
As a result of my conditions and disability, I lost my business of 20 years and my home of 11 years. I was forced to sell most of my possessions, just to survive.
I borrowed money from family members and friends. This has caused me to lose relationships with them.
I have lost contact with my brothers and almost everyone in my life, including my own son… all over money.
My children grew up in a very affluent neighborhood in Orange County, California. When I lost everything, only my eldest daughter stuck by me. She didn't give up on me because of my medical conditions.
We've all suffered a huge loss, but I cannot change or take back what has happened; I can only fight and move on.Income Efforts
With my disability, I have a very hard time concentrating, but I have been trying to do whatever I can to subsidize my income, because I am barely making ends meet with my SSDI income.
Thank God for my closest few friends that have helped me out with shelter and food.
I spend a lot of time searching different ways to make money on the Internet. I sell whatever things I don't want anymore on eBay and Amazon so I can rest a little easier.
I worked very hard all of my life get what I once had, but I realize that the stuff I accumulated really doesn't mean anything, except to earn some money by selling it.
My credit used to be pristine, and now I can't even get approved for a payday loan against my SSDI payment, let alone a credit card.
My vehicle was repossessed in July because I couldn't afford to pay the payment on it, which makes everything virtually impossible even if I could work.Specific Needs
I would like to find any type of grant that could help me get a vehicle, and also with getting my own place to live, which would help me regain some stability again in life.
I would also like to find somewhere that I could borrow up to $100,000 to be able to pay back family and friends, and possibly regain those relationships, consolidate my other debts, and relieve that constant stress that I have.Business Idea
I really want to become an advocate for mental health, being able to share my story, and hopefully help others who suffer similar disorders that I have.
It has been a tough five years, and a battle, but I am still here to talk about it. If I can be heard, and help people that feel isolated or don't know why they feel the way they do, it would be a win/win situation in my eyes.
I would also like to find a publishing company that would sponsor me writing a book about my life, and what I have been through, and how I've not given up.
I have a lot to share, and I know it could help others, and hopefully save lives. I don't want to dwell on the past; I want to focus on the future.