Disability Grants To Help Dianna With Multiple Disabilities Live A More Fulfilling Life
by Dianna Martinez
(Victorville, California, USA)
I'm a 35-year-old disabled mother of two children: one boy, one girl. I have full custody.
Dianna With Multiple Disabilities Seeks Disability Grants For More Fulfilling Life
We currently live with my family in my mom's house in Victorville California.
The whole house is full with my mom, adopted brother, older sister and nephew and his wife. There are also four children as well as six dogs and six cats, along with my two kids and myself.
We moved here after losing our place and things in Eugene Oregon, due to hard times.Disability Issues
My biological mother's family has a long history mental health issues. My biological grandparent killed himself due to mental illness.
I suffer from depression, PTSD, anxiety disorder, schizophrenic tendencies and bipolar disorder.
My father served in US ARMY. He suffered from multiple health issues and mental health disorders, resulting from stress and exposure to harmful toxins like Agent Orange. I was exposed too because of the time of conception.
It became a battle to keep up with my medicines and appointments. I felt hopeless. I try to stay ahead of this issue but it seems to never be where it should be.
I'm always feeling like I'm not good enough. I battled with a feeling like I could change the world and the world would be better without me.
I was never being heard and given the same treatment or understanding that everyone else seems to give each other. After a fight with my dad and getting yelled at, I took a knife and went outside where I banged my head and wanted to die.
I was institutionalized at Harbor UCLA Torrance California for 72 hours after having a physical and mental breakdown when I was 16 years old. Once released, I started going to Long Beach Mental Health facility.
I was trying to medicate, so I stopped using pot and meth and got severe anxiety attacks along with being extremely angry. It was not working. I became suicidal and twice attempted to take my own life. I overdosed on aspirin and never told anyone. And I also tried to hang myself.
I suffered from bulimia and from taking diet pills. I ended up running away and living with friends. I eventually was homeless in a shelter, where I met my first husband. It was very toxic.
I voluntarily called 911 at 19 years old after just being very depressed and wanting to be reevaluated. I admitted myself to the Lawndale Metropolitan mental health facility.
I stayed for a week and left without medical consent. I was running away from life and reality. I was soon addicted in recovery. But I was still medicating with pot so I could keep my anxiety down. I was raped in my marriage, so I left him to be with another man.
I did not know how to drive because I never learned and was afraid. Other disabling issues I have are fractures in my spine due to a severe car accident. My L1 and L2 and C1 and C2 vertebrae got injured and have never been repaired.
I have TMJ and a broken mandible, which is the top portion of the jaw that has caused my teeth to become crooked and chipped. It's very uncomfortable and embarrassing to me when I smile.
I also had surgery to repair an umbilical hernia and had a tumor the size of a golf ball removed from my abdomen.
I did apply and receive approval for my SSDI.Financial Hardship
Each month, I receive $745 SSDI, $335 from county aid and food stamps at $250.
This is my current monthly expenses and bills,
1. Rent $550
2. Cell phone bill 2 x $97
3. Paying SR22 insurance $30
4. Toiletries for the house $140
5. Gasoline $40
6. Paying DMV in two states, one for reinstatement of and the other to obtain my driver's license $100
7. Food for the month $100
Total Expenses = $1,057
Total income is $745 + $350 = $1,090
This leaves me $30 to save for the month.Income Efforts
• Working to assist an elderly man with his meals and doctors appointments medications and house cleaning
• Taking online surveys
• Asking for loans
• Going to get food boxes at the church
• Selling or pawning my jewelry and electronics
• Moving friends in the home to pay rent
• Donating blood or plasma
• Doing training certification of CPR, first aid and AUD.
• Cleaning houses
• BabysittingSpecific Needs
• Car safe for me travel to appointments
• House to be able to take care of myself
• Better dental coverage
• Better vision coverage
• Renovation on housing
I am seeking enough monetary help to be able to show my kids and myself a better, happier lifestyle and independence I can be proud of.
I want to be a mom and provider to all the needs of my kids and myself, so that the kids are not ashamed that I could not do better for them. I know there is a better way.Business Idea
I'd like to become a licensed massage therapist and be able to work from home in my garage. I'd like to be able to buy the equipment necessary to start this business, like uniforms and business cards.
I am trying to fulfill the needs of my kids and myself by still being able to work part time and be at home for my kids like I have been to keep more stability and consistency.
This will be the jump-start that I need to stay on top of my financial needs along with my mental emotional health.
I am only 35 years old but feel like there is a light. I always thought better for myself now I know that this can be possible and anything is possible if you want it enough.